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Friday, 27 November 2009

The Difference Between Football and Life

Sometimes in life you're just going to get some bad plays, bad calls, and people who will disappoint you.
Get up, move past it, and ready up for the next play.
The difference [between football and life], of course, is this:
While football has multiple short games, life is one long game.
*Don't stop 'till the clock runs out*

***EDIT***
It's funny how people use the Internet to express their emotions and make it all so explicit [or cryptic]... the thing is, they're crying out - they feel as if they have no one else to turn to [no one will understand] - they toss it up for all to see, hoping, just HOPING that someone would heed their cry for help. Oh, how they hope. Only for it to never come. No one, especially the one who the message is meant for, pays attention. Everyone gives little crap comments like "aw man, I hope you feel better" or "aw poor baby - wah wah more?" - no one cares. So the author of the message is beaten down, hurt, and lost. Maybe the writer should have been more vocal. Maybe the writer should have been direct. Maybe the writer should suck it up and go forward. But maybe he/she can't - still FOOLISHLY clinging onto the hope that something would happen, that something would go in his/her favor.
What a fool, right?
Yeah, I know I am.

Thursday, 26 November 2009

Who Am I?

Lately I've been having these thoughts that question myself; I think to myself:
"Who am I?"
Freaking... ugh. I've been looking at the past for reference to who I might be. Who I might be in the lives of others' and who I might be to myself - what role do I play in this little circle of life that I might impact? Well, based on the past (which I got through pictures and journals), I've been quite a scrub. I can't bring people to laugh, instead I bring about stress or annoyance or something negative. Whenever I'm with people I feel as if I'm an annoying voice of a small person who is looked down upon and not taken seriously. Expanding on that point, whenever I talk to older people, I don't have the smoothness of talking to them as others do. I feel like a baby. & even with people who aren't older than me, I feel as if I'm just a bother. I mean, nothing ever seems to go straight with me when it comes to people, especially girls. What the heck. I mean, the girls part isn't that important (kindof... sortof.. i guess it does play a somewhat signifcant role), but just connecting with people has me beat - I just can't seem to do it! I feel so awkward! I can't start conversations or keep them going, unless it's with someone like Hyo (who is my best friend). All other conversations end up dead or pointless. Why is it that it feels as if everyone just wants to get out of my face? Why is it that I'm so shy, even though I try not to be? And when I actually make some noise, it's just awkward - my voice makes everything sound blah - it's so high.... and here I go rambling on and on about my life when no one wants to hear it - I mean, frankly, I don't like to hear people whining unless they have a legitimate reason to. So i'll end this little crap session right here. It's not like anyone's going to read this fully.

Monday, 09 November 2009

Strangle Me With a Cordless Phone

Of course I miss you!
Am I supposed to say I don't?
7777-88-555-444-66
444
777-33-2-555-555-999
6-444-777-777
999-666-222.
And it's weird how PD's messages lately (especially yesterday's) applied to us...hrm.
utinam dixisses saepius.
utinam temptavisses ostendere mihi amorem.

te amavi.

Saturday, 31 October 2009

Atheists vs. Christians

After having spent 3 days with a group of mostly Atheists, I've realized that these people really aren't that different from Christians. Sure, they swear more, have sensual conversations and partake in many questionable ventures, but when I think about it, how much different is that from what Christians do? We gossip as if there is no tomorrow, place our earthly desires before anything/one else, pop in the occasional curse word, engage in somewhat sensual ventures, and the list continues.

There is also another similarity about Atheists and Christians:
a firm belief.

No matter how hard one may try to argue a point, the dissent from the opposition comes back harsher and stronger than the one from before. I tried to talk theology with someone in this group and he just kept on going about HIS beliefs. I noticed that he was grabbing onto an idea similar to that of Christians - an idea that HE is right and that everyone else is wrong. I respect that; not the result, but the firm hold he has onto his beliefs.

Very interesting thing I noticed over the past 3 days... that is all.

P.S. - William & Mary is a really nice college - beautiful!

Sunday, 18 October 2009

Frustration

Okay, so the Eagles lost to the RAIDERS. I mean, COME ON. The Raiders? ugh.
So homework, projects, and assesments have been piling up - I have so many this week. Then again, this is the last week of the quarter (for me), so it's no wonder that the teachers are going nuts right now. Blahblahblah. OH, and now my stupid computer goes insane and gets ANOTHER virus. Wow. Then, when I need to do homework on my dad's laptop, the stupid Microsoft Office demands a product key, which we don't seem to have. I mean, can I please get a break?
Personally? Sure, I'm okay. Not the best, but okay. I'm still trying to sort things out in life.
Looking back at this entry, it's just a bunch of "wahwah-ing" but that fits my mood well now:
Frustrated, disappointed, stressed, sad, never at rest, and all the rest.
*Maybe I should keep myself in my room for the rest of junior year - no tv, no computer (unless it is necessary), no playing around... ONLY HOMEWORK, STUDYING, BORING STUFF.
okay.. signing off*